I was driving home from work this morning and I saw not one, but several houses already decked out for Christmas and I could not believe my eyes! Did I miss the turkey and cranberry sauce? Did we skip the entire month of November? Am I the only person that finds this a little disturbing?
I love Thanksgiving! It is the only holiday where diets are outlawed and it is ok to wear pants with draw strings. It is all about spending time with family, reflecting on the past year, and taking time to be THANKFUL!
When I was growing up I loved Thanksgiving. I can remember waking up early that morning to the sound of the vacuum cleaner running and my mom getting that last speck of dirt off the carpet. I would go out to the living room and turn on the TV to watch the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade. As my mom would be basting the turkey and giving last minute "honey do" jobs for my dad, I would be watching the pink panther soar above Manhattan, dancing with the Rockettes, all while trying to sing the latest Broadway tune! We would have to hurry and get dressed because soon the entire family would be coming to our house for the day. The cars would start to come up the drive...Grandpa unloading a trunk full of Grandma's pies and chicken and dumplings. My Uncle Mel would pull up by the house and get my great grandma's wheelchair out of the van and let me ride on her lap while he pushed her into the house. My cousins would arrive and we would try to sneak a dessert before the meal. After everyone arrived and the "buffet" was arranged, we would all stand in the living room and kitchen together as a family (there were so many of us that we didn't all fit in one room). Everyone would join hands and we would reflect on all of the things that we as a family had to be thankful for. We would hold hands and pray. We would eat. Laughter filled the rooms. Everyone would go back for seconds, some, even thirds!!! The ladies would then sit and chat over dessert. The men would lie on the couch, in the chairs, even on the floor, and turn on some football while talking about the 10 point buck that they missed while hunting earlier that morning. Tums would be passed around and games were played by the kids. This was my memories of Thanksgiving as a child.
When I graduated high school and went away to college I couldn't wait to get home for Thanksgiving break. It would kick off on Tuesday evening with the famous Borden-Pekin Basketball rivalry game. It was like a homecoming of sorts, you would run into all of your old friends, talk about what was new in your life, while rooting for the home team! My car would be packed full of dirty laundry that awaited mom's washing machine. As the years past there were some years that I had to work on Thanksgiving. My how I missed being with my family. I would call every few hours to get the play by play of the day. I would finally get home to a house full of family and warm up a plate of leftover turkey...it was the best!
The first Thanksgiving Bobby and I spent together was actually a week before we were married. The two years before that we were both on call or working, and didn't get to spend the holiday together. It was a crazy time. Not only were we a week away from tying the knot, but my grandpa had just went through major heart surgery the week before and had several life threatening complications. We almost decided as a family not to get together that year, just to go to a restaurant, we thought it would just make things easier. As grandpa laid in the hospital gravely ill he said, "you are still getting together tomorrow, aren't you?" I left the hospital and went straight to the store, bought a turkey, and went home to cook it! I had no idea how in the world to make a turkey, but I did it. We all got together as a family. That was the last Thanksgiving grandpa was with us. That next Friday, I walked down the isle and married my best friend. Two years later we shared the first Thanksgiving with our newborn baby girl, we had so much to be thankful for. It was my first real outing after giving birth. It took me about three hours to get all of the diaper bags packed, breast pump loaded in the car, and about four changes of clothes for the baby! What a day it was!!! Last year was Frankie's first Thanksgiving. When we stood together as a family and reflected on the year and what we were thankful for all I could think about was how BLESSED we were to have a healthy baby. A baby that literally could have died was healthy and strong. How appropriate that he was named after grandpa. What a JOY he has been to our family!
This is what Thanksgiving is all about...GIVING THANKS! I am thankful for so many things, from my family to the fact that this year I'm wearing jeans that I haven't worn since pre baby days! It's a good day. It's a great day, indeed!
So before you start to plan out your black Friday shopping spree or trim the tree, don't forget about carving the turkey. Don't forget to be thankful for the little things in life that matter so much. And please, don't turn on your Christmas lights until the day after!!!! Let the turkey have his day too!
Monday, November 15, 2010
Friday, October 29, 2010
BFF, LYLAS, and so on
I can remember my first day of kindergarten just like yesterday. I was so excited about going to the same school as my big brother. What I didn't understand was that we would not be in the same class, so when I got to school and he was not with me, I was a little scared! Then this really nice little girl with long blond hair came and sat in the chair next to me. This would be the beginning of a 25 year and counting friendship.
In my life I have been blessed beyond measure with a wonderful, loving, and caring family. I realize that this is something that is now often not the case and I am thankful for them. I also have been immensely blessed with friends whom I consider family. Having both of these families in my life has made more of an impact on me as a person than I could ever explain in words, but I will try.
I went to the same school from kindergarten to high school graduation. In fact, it was all in the same building. To some this may be surprising, but to those of us who grew up together, it was normal . The same girls that I started to play basketball with in elementary school were the same girls that I shared the court with on my last game as a senior. Sunday school, bible camp, summer bike rides, and sleepovers, they were all there. First dates, prom, parties, graduation, and even our first hangovers, we all were together.
For some people this is where the story ends, after high school everyone goes their separate ways and those friendships that were so strong become a distant memory with the occasional phone call or email. In my case, this was not the end of the story, in fact, it was just the beginning.
In college I meet new people at a different phase in my life. I never dreamed that I could become such good friends with someone almost instantly. It was just like the first day of kindergarten all over again. After college and across the miles, the story doesn't end here for me either.
Being a nurse is a great job. It is my passion, it is what I have wanted to do all of my life. When I passed my nursing boards and had a real job, I was so excited, yet terrified. The thought of literally having someone else's life in your hands is a huge responsibility for a 21 year old. My fellow co workers took me under their wings, they taught me how to be a good nurse, they took care of me. I watched them save lives literally, I witnessed them having to tell a mother that their son or daughter was dead. I have seen them hold the hand of the dying person who has not one family member until they take their last breath. They even introduced me to the man who would become my husband and the father of my children.
Through thick and thin, best friends forever, to those of you special people in my life, we have stayed true to this. We have seen each other at their best, and at their lowest. We have been there for each other through marriage and even divorce. We have been there for illnesses and death of loved ones. We have been pregnant together, and have seen each other become mothers for the first time. Through all of the laughter and some tears our friendships are stronger than ever. No matter what walk of life we have meet in, you are all different, yet so instrumental in the person that I am.
I want to thank the special few of you who are my closest friends. You know who you are, whether we have been friends since the first day of kindergarten, or have only known each other from work. Thank you. Thank you for being a good friend to me. Thank you for loving me for who I am. Thank you for your loyalty and trust. Yes, I am one of those lucky few people in this world that has a group of friends that I can call family. I know that no matter where we are in life, that we will always share the common bond of friendship.
A friend loves at all times. Proverbs 17:17
I love you my dear friends
In my life I have been blessed beyond measure with a wonderful, loving, and caring family. I realize that this is something that is now often not the case and I am thankful for them. I also have been immensely blessed with friends whom I consider family. Having both of these families in my life has made more of an impact on me as a person than I could ever explain in words, but I will try.
I went to the same school from kindergarten to high school graduation. In fact, it was all in the same building. To some this may be surprising, but to those of us who grew up together, it was normal . The same girls that I started to play basketball with in elementary school were the same girls that I shared the court with on my last game as a senior. Sunday school, bible camp, summer bike rides, and sleepovers, they were all there. First dates, prom, parties, graduation, and even our first hangovers, we all were together.
For some people this is where the story ends, after high school everyone goes their separate ways and those friendships that were so strong become a distant memory with the occasional phone call or email. In my case, this was not the end of the story, in fact, it was just the beginning.
In college I meet new people at a different phase in my life. I never dreamed that I could become such good friends with someone almost instantly. It was just like the first day of kindergarten all over again. After college and across the miles, the story doesn't end here for me either.
Being a nurse is a great job. It is my passion, it is what I have wanted to do all of my life. When I passed my nursing boards and had a real job, I was so excited, yet terrified. The thought of literally having someone else's life in your hands is a huge responsibility for a 21 year old. My fellow co workers took me under their wings, they taught me how to be a good nurse, they took care of me. I watched them save lives literally, I witnessed them having to tell a mother that their son or daughter was dead. I have seen them hold the hand of the dying person who has not one family member until they take their last breath. They even introduced me to the man who would become my husband and the father of my children.
Through thick and thin, best friends forever, to those of you special people in my life, we have stayed true to this. We have seen each other at their best, and at their lowest. We have been there for each other through marriage and even divorce. We have been there for illnesses and death of loved ones. We have been pregnant together, and have seen each other become mothers for the first time. Through all of the laughter and some tears our friendships are stronger than ever. No matter what walk of life we have meet in, you are all different, yet so instrumental in the person that I am.
I want to thank the special few of you who are my closest friends. You know who you are, whether we have been friends since the first day of kindergarten, or have only known each other from work. Thank you. Thank you for being a good friend to me. Thank you for loving me for who I am. Thank you for your loyalty and trust. Yes, I am one of those lucky few people in this world that has a group of friends that I can call family. I know that no matter where we are in life, that we will always share the common bond of friendship.
A friend loves at all times. Proverbs 17:17
I love you my dear friends
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Trick or Treat, smell my feet...
It is that time of year again. The time of year where the candy corn is on every isle in the grocery store and the fun size snickers just happen to magically appear in my shopping cart. Of course, it is the only time that I have a valid excuse to buy such things because we HAVE to get plenty of candy for our two trick or treaters, right?
I know that I should get into the ghouls and goblins mood, but as a parent, I dread Halloween. The idea of a constant sugar high for three days with a 1 and 2 year old just isn't fun. Buying overpriced costumes and then having to take them off and on my kids every time that I get them in and out of the car to trick or treat because they don't fit in their car seats with them on is entirely too much work!
As a kid I had great memories of Halloween. I can remember going to the store to look at costumes. Some years I would get one from the store, but most years we didn't. To be honest, the years we wore the homemade costumes were the best. One year I was a "hobo" wearing dad's old flannel shirt, another year I was a referee, wearing dad's referee shirt. Funny thing, a lot of my costumes came out of dad's closet!!! My fondest costume was when I was in the first grade. My Granny had some old curtains in her house that were a shear white fabric . My cousins and I would stand in the window where they hung down to the floor, and we would wrap up in them playing a bride. We would drape it around our head like a veil and then sing "Here comes the Bride" for hours. My Granny and Mom had a great idea to make me a "bride" costume out of the old curtains. I was so excited! I could remember watching the progress on my dress everyday and the excitement that I had about wearing it to school and showing it to all of my friends. The day finally came, I put on my costume that I loved so much and got on the school bus. I was so proud! I didn't win the best costume award that year, but to me, It was the greatest ever!
Some years we would make a dummy and sit him on our front porch. Stuffing my dad's coveralls with leaves and putting "hunky dory" aka our name for the famous funny mask that we had for years, on top of the coveralls. Once my mom even put the mask on while she was in bed with the covers over her face. My dad came home from working a double shift and pulled back the covers, nearly peeing himself when he saw my mom! We laughed for days!!!
Popcorn balls homemade by Grandma Pat, crisp fall evenings, the smell of bonfires...that was Halloween to me. In the spirit of the season, I have decided that I will participate in making Halloween fun for my kids, even if I don't care for it as an adult like I did as a kid. Although we have store bought costumes and there is no "hunky dory" on my front porch, we will make family memories of our own. Who knows, maybe I will find an old curtain and make my own costume...
I know that I should get into the ghouls and goblins mood, but as a parent, I dread Halloween. The idea of a constant sugar high for three days with a 1 and 2 year old just isn't fun. Buying overpriced costumes and then having to take them off and on my kids every time that I get them in and out of the car to trick or treat because they don't fit in their car seats with them on is entirely too much work!
As a kid I had great memories of Halloween. I can remember going to the store to look at costumes. Some years I would get one from the store, but most years we didn't. To be honest, the years we wore the homemade costumes were the best. One year I was a "hobo" wearing dad's old flannel shirt, another year I was a referee, wearing dad's referee shirt. Funny thing, a lot of my costumes came out of dad's closet!!! My fondest costume was when I was in the first grade. My Granny had some old curtains in her house that were a shear white fabric . My cousins and I would stand in the window where they hung down to the floor, and we would wrap up in them playing a bride. We would drape it around our head like a veil and then sing "Here comes the Bride" for hours. My Granny and Mom had a great idea to make me a "bride" costume out of the old curtains. I was so excited! I could remember watching the progress on my dress everyday and the excitement that I had about wearing it to school and showing it to all of my friends. The day finally came, I put on my costume that I loved so much and got on the school bus. I was so proud! I didn't win the best costume award that year, but to me, It was the greatest ever!
Some years we would make a dummy and sit him on our front porch. Stuffing my dad's coveralls with leaves and putting "hunky dory" aka our name for the famous funny mask that we had for years, on top of the coveralls. Once my mom even put the mask on while she was in bed with the covers over her face. My dad came home from working a double shift and pulled back the covers, nearly peeing himself when he saw my mom! We laughed for days!!!
Popcorn balls homemade by Grandma Pat, crisp fall evenings, the smell of bonfires...that was Halloween to me. In the spirit of the season, I have decided that I will participate in making Halloween fun for my kids, even if I don't care for it as an adult like I did as a kid. Although we have store bought costumes and there is no "hunky dory" on my front porch, we will make family memories of our own. Who knows, maybe I will find an old curtain and make my own costume...
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
No Thanks, Ronald McDonald
This past summer was the hottest on record and I don't think that anyone will disagree, it was miserable!! It felt more like Death Valley than Kentucky. Due to the hot temps there were days we were forced to come up with alternatives to playing outside. Driving by McDonald's I had the bright idea that the playplace would be great fun for the kids. I should have just kept on driving.
The people who do marketing for McDonald's are quite clever, obviously. So good they could probably convince a fat girl like me to buy a bikini and make her think that she looks good in it. The happy meal, free toys, and the playplace, they are all targets for those little people in the back seat, to lure them in, and get them hooked! We had visited the playplace once before with our older cousins and it was a good experience so I figured that this would be a great way for Liv to burn some energy.
We had a little talk in the car before going in about eating first, then she could play. For those of you who know my child, she doesn't eat much, sometimes I wonder how she can be my daughter! We got our food, sat down to eat, and to my surprise she finished every last bite of her meal. Frankie and I were still eating but I told her that she could go and play.
I watched her ever so carefully climb all of the way to the top of the play equipment and continue to go through a maze. At first I was a little nervous because I could not see her when she was in the maze but every few minutes I would hear, "Mom, watch me"! Meanwhile, Frankie was still enjoying eating his chicken nuggets, so I sat and continued to feed him while watching her play. As I was people watching, I noticed a woman who looked more like my mom's age with no less than 5 kids with her, she looked tired and worn out. While trying to figure out if she was the mommy or grandma, I heard this piercing scream from the top of the maze. I knew that it wasn't Liv, and then I saw the mom/grandma look up at a screaming little girl. She was trying to coax her down, but with no luck. She proceeded to climb all of the way to the top to bring her down. Have you ever seen these things? There are no ladders, just platforms made for a 3 year old to climb up. The entire time I was watching her I was thinking, I'm so glad that isn't my kid. Then it hit me, I could see my future right before my eyes. I knew that this is exactly what I was going to be doing. It was not 2 minutes and I hear Liv yelling, "MOM, COME GET ME NOW"!
I could see her peeking through the window in the maze and I was trying to tell her how to get down, but all I got in return was, "come get me, I'm scared"! Scanning the play area I thought, there has to be an older kid in here that can climb up and get her. No such luck. They were all little ankle biters just like her. I knew what I was going to have to do. I grabbed Frankie out of the high chair and walked to the "platform tower" area. I took one look at it and thought how in the world am I going to get this fat @%% up there all while holding Frankie? Definitely should not have eaten that Big Mac. I started the climb. With every platform that I had to squeeze through one handed, her screams got louder. I had back sweat. This was not good. After what seemed like climbing Everest, I made it to the top platform. I looked and she was at the end of this tunnel. NO WAY can I fit through it. FINALLY, she got close enough that I grabbed her foot and I dragged her to the platform where I squeezed back to the bottom while holding two kids. When I made it to the floor I wanted to kiss it. I looked around and realized that not only did I have an audience inside, there were people in the drive thru watching too. GREAT, I'm going to end up on some Youtube video...FAT MOM CLIMBS UP TO SCREAMING CHILD. Thank God that I have not seen it...yet.
We didn't even clean up our eating area, we went straight to the car, and I got the heck out of that place as fast as I could.
Whenever you have the idea that going to the playplace would be great fun, just remember that you could be that mom/grandma climbing to the top to get your crying kid.
Next summer when it is blazing hot and we are looking for alternative activities, we are going to the pool!
The people who do marketing for McDonald's are quite clever, obviously. So good they could probably convince a fat girl like me to buy a bikini and make her think that she looks good in it. The happy meal, free toys, and the playplace, they are all targets for those little people in the back seat, to lure them in, and get them hooked! We had visited the playplace once before with our older cousins and it was a good experience so I figured that this would be a great way for Liv to burn some energy.
We had a little talk in the car before going in about eating first, then she could play. For those of you who know my child, she doesn't eat much, sometimes I wonder how she can be my daughter! We got our food, sat down to eat, and to my surprise she finished every last bite of her meal. Frankie and I were still eating but I told her that she could go and play.
I watched her ever so carefully climb all of the way to the top of the play equipment and continue to go through a maze. At first I was a little nervous because I could not see her when she was in the maze but every few minutes I would hear, "Mom, watch me"! Meanwhile, Frankie was still enjoying eating his chicken nuggets, so I sat and continued to feed him while watching her play. As I was people watching, I noticed a woman who looked more like my mom's age with no less than 5 kids with her, she looked tired and worn out. While trying to figure out if she was the mommy or grandma, I heard this piercing scream from the top of the maze. I knew that it wasn't Liv, and then I saw the mom/grandma look up at a screaming little girl. She was trying to coax her down, but with no luck. She proceeded to climb all of the way to the top to bring her down. Have you ever seen these things? There are no ladders, just platforms made for a 3 year old to climb up. The entire time I was watching her I was thinking, I'm so glad that isn't my kid. Then it hit me, I could see my future right before my eyes. I knew that this is exactly what I was going to be doing. It was not 2 minutes and I hear Liv yelling, "MOM, COME GET ME NOW"!
I could see her peeking through the window in the maze and I was trying to tell her how to get down, but all I got in return was, "come get me, I'm scared"! Scanning the play area I thought, there has to be an older kid in here that can climb up and get her. No such luck. They were all little ankle biters just like her. I knew what I was going to have to do. I grabbed Frankie out of the high chair and walked to the "platform tower" area. I took one look at it and thought how in the world am I going to get this fat @%% up there all while holding Frankie? Definitely should not have eaten that Big Mac. I started the climb. With every platform that I had to squeeze through one handed, her screams got louder. I had back sweat. This was not good. After what seemed like climbing Everest, I made it to the top platform. I looked and she was at the end of this tunnel. NO WAY can I fit through it. FINALLY, she got close enough that I grabbed her foot and I dragged her to the platform where I squeezed back to the bottom while holding two kids. When I made it to the floor I wanted to kiss it. I looked around and realized that not only did I have an audience inside, there were people in the drive thru watching too. GREAT, I'm going to end up on some Youtube video...FAT MOM CLIMBS UP TO SCREAMING CHILD. Thank God that I have not seen it...yet.
We didn't even clean up our eating area, we went straight to the car, and I got the heck out of that place as fast as I could.
Whenever you have the idea that going to the playplace would be great fun, just remember that you could be that mom/grandma climbing to the top to get your crying kid.
Next summer when it is blazing hot and we are looking for alternative activities, we are going to the pool!
Monday, October 4, 2010
This is what I signed up for
I recall vividly the first few days that I worked in the hospital as a nursing assistant while in school. I had brand new scrubs, a cute stethoscope, and shiny white tennis shoes. I would bounce in a patients room with a smile from ear to ear. I was as green as grass. Then it happened, I had to clean out a bedpan and poop for the first time and I thought, "This really isn't what I had in mind, a business degree sounds somewhat appealing".
In our lives we all have those moments when we think, is this really what I signed up for? What was I thinking? I am crazy! I had that same exact thought at 4am this morning after two nights in a row of my two year old thinking that it is more fun to keep me awake at night.
When both of my babies were born I remember the feelings that I had in those first few precious hours of their lives. The overwhelming feeling of love, the feeling of accomplishment, the pride you have when showing your child to your family for the first time. Thankful. Blessed. It is a feeling that could never be matched, an amazing time to cherish. Then all of the sudden about 8 hours into it those feelings get overshadowed by the constant feedings, the trying to get out of bed when you have almost been cut in half. Smiling when the 20th person walks in your room for a visit when all you want to do is feed this kid and take a nap. Your spinal wears off! Sitting on the side of the bed realizing that you are never going to be the same. Then going home makes it even worse. The anxiety sets in. How do I get this kid to stop crying, and is that a blister on my nipple? You want to take all of those pretty parenting books and cute little trinkets and run over them with the car. Baby's r us did not mention this feeling on their "We have everything" registry. This is NOT what I signed up for!
Being a mom is the hardest job that I have ever had. Someone always needs to be taken care of, and there is always things to do. Taking a shower is no longer a necessity but a luxury. Days where you feel glamorous because you are wearing jeans instead of sweat pants. I turned in my stilettos for crocks! I should get the freaking Nobel peace prize for this work! Then when you least expect it, they rock your world! They pat your face and give you slobber kisses. They tell you how much they love you. They tell you that you are pretty. They make your day.
The next time they are awake half of the night and you have those thoughts about this journey not being exactly what you thought it would be, I will think of all of those moments that make me want to do it all over again. The smell of a newborn and the sweet sounds they make. The first time that they look at you and smile. The first time you hear them call your name. The laughter that outweighs the cries. It is the hardest thing I have ever done, but the reward is endless. They make my life worth living. My cup overflows.
When the kids take their nap today, instead of watching their sweet little faces while they sleep, I am going to run and jump in the bed and take a nap too.
In our lives we all have those moments when we think, is this really what I signed up for? What was I thinking? I am crazy! I had that same exact thought at 4am this morning after two nights in a row of my two year old thinking that it is more fun to keep me awake at night.
When both of my babies were born I remember the feelings that I had in those first few precious hours of their lives. The overwhelming feeling of love, the feeling of accomplishment, the pride you have when showing your child to your family for the first time. Thankful. Blessed. It is a feeling that could never be matched, an amazing time to cherish. Then all of the sudden about 8 hours into it those feelings get overshadowed by the constant feedings, the trying to get out of bed when you have almost been cut in half. Smiling when the 20th person walks in your room for a visit when all you want to do is feed this kid and take a nap. Your spinal wears off! Sitting on the side of the bed realizing that you are never going to be the same. Then going home makes it even worse. The anxiety sets in. How do I get this kid to stop crying, and is that a blister on my nipple? You want to take all of those pretty parenting books and cute little trinkets and run over them with the car. Baby's r us did not mention this feeling on their "We have everything" registry. This is NOT what I signed up for!
Being a mom is the hardest job that I have ever had. Someone always needs to be taken care of, and there is always things to do. Taking a shower is no longer a necessity but a luxury. Days where you feel glamorous because you are wearing jeans instead of sweat pants. I turned in my stilettos for crocks! I should get the freaking Nobel peace prize for this work! Then when you least expect it, they rock your world! They pat your face and give you slobber kisses. They tell you how much they love you. They tell you that you are pretty. They make your day.
The next time they are awake half of the night and you have those thoughts about this journey not being exactly what you thought it would be, I will think of all of those moments that make me want to do it all over again. The smell of a newborn and the sweet sounds they make. The first time that they look at you and smile. The first time you hear them call your name. The laughter that outweighs the cries. It is the hardest thing I have ever done, but the reward is endless. They make my life worth living. My cup overflows.
When the kids take their nap today, instead of watching their sweet little faces while they sleep, I am going to run and jump in the bed and take a nap too.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Roadtrip
This past week we took our first "big vacation" with the kids. We have done a few small weekend trips and they did great so we figured that we were ready to take the plunge. I can honestly say that I was nervous and didn't have high expectations on how a 1yr old and 2 yr old would do in the car for 10 hours, but to my surprise it went quite well. Thanks to the portable DVD player!
I can't believe that this is a relatively new concept, letting the kids watch DVDs in the car on long trips. I am guessing whoever invented the concept had a whole litter of kids. I know my parents would have given a kidney for one when we were little I am sure. Our road trips growing up seems like yesterday. The old Lincoln town car aka "The Gray Granny" was packed down so far that the muffler would almost drag the pavement. I had my red "going to grandma's" suitcase in the trunk along with Chad's blue matching one. My mom's over sized pink plastic samsonite suitcase from 1975 stuffed so full that my dad would have to sit on it to get the metal latches to close. Chad and I packed in the back seat amidst pillows and a cooler with snacks and drinks. I used to think why don't we just ditch the cooler and leave it at home so that I can actually stretch out my legs. Countless games of paper rock scissors, hitting each other and yelling "didn't hurt" until literally we had bruises on our arms and was crying. Begging my dad to stop just one more time because I had to pee AGAIN. Asking those 4 words that every parent can't stand to hear "Are we there yet"? Then after what seemed like an eternity my mom would roll down the windows, at least the ones that actually worked (the back window in the passenger side didn't work and only my mom and I knew how to open the door) and say, "We're getting close, I can smell the salt water!" Excitement and anticipation took over those feelings of thinking that we were never going to get there. Then we could finally see it, the ocean at last!! After I think about it, even though we didn't have Mr. portable DVD inventor man, it was the best. It was a time in my life that I will never forget.
As I was driving the last few hours of the trip to Florida I was thinking to myself about how I am the mom now. I am the one who stayed up until the wee hours of the morning making sure that every last thing was packed and ready to go. Getting ice for the cooler, loading the car, getting the first aid kit and the map. Bobby sitting on the suitcase to get it zipped. Where had time gone? Was I really ready to tackle this? Then I thought this was our roadtrip, our first vacation as a family. It was our turn to make memories that would last a lifetime. We were ready, we were the parents. This was our time.
Then I heard those four little words come out of Livi's mouth "Are we there yet?" I rolled down the windows and said " We're getting close, I can smell the saltwater"!
I can't believe that this is a relatively new concept, letting the kids watch DVDs in the car on long trips. I am guessing whoever invented the concept had a whole litter of kids. I know my parents would have given a kidney for one when we were little I am sure. Our road trips growing up seems like yesterday. The old Lincoln town car aka "The Gray Granny" was packed down so far that the muffler would almost drag the pavement. I had my red "going to grandma's" suitcase in the trunk along with Chad's blue matching one. My mom's over sized pink plastic samsonite suitcase from 1975 stuffed so full that my dad would have to sit on it to get the metal latches to close. Chad and I packed in the back seat amidst pillows and a cooler with snacks and drinks. I used to think why don't we just ditch the cooler and leave it at home so that I can actually stretch out my legs. Countless games of paper rock scissors, hitting each other and yelling "didn't hurt" until literally we had bruises on our arms and was crying. Begging my dad to stop just one more time because I had to pee AGAIN. Asking those 4 words that every parent can't stand to hear "Are we there yet"? Then after what seemed like an eternity my mom would roll down the windows, at least the ones that actually worked (the back window in the passenger side didn't work and only my mom and I knew how to open the door) and say, "We're getting close, I can smell the salt water!" Excitement and anticipation took over those feelings of thinking that we were never going to get there. Then we could finally see it, the ocean at last!! After I think about it, even though we didn't have Mr. portable DVD inventor man, it was the best. It was a time in my life that I will never forget.
As I was driving the last few hours of the trip to Florida I was thinking to myself about how I am the mom now. I am the one who stayed up until the wee hours of the morning making sure that every last thing was packed and ready to go. Getting ice for the cooler, loading the car, getting the first aid kit and the map. Bobby sitting on the suitcase to get it zipped. Where had time gone? Was I really ready to tackle this? Then I thought this was our roadtrip, our first vacation as a family. It was our turn to make memories that would last a lifetime. We were ready, we were the parents. This was our time.
Then I heard those four little words come out of Livi's mouth "Are we there yet?" I rolled down the windows and said " We're getting close, I can smell the saltwater"!
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Mommy, RN
Ever since I can remember I have wanted to be a nurse. When I was three years old I would tell people that I was going to work at Norton's hospital in the nursery and take care of the babies. I did fulfill my dream of being a nurse, although the thought of working in the nursery terrifies me! I have become an ICU junkie! I love going to work and taking care of the sickest patients in the hospital. I have seen people live after being on their death bed. I have held hands of dying people when no family was to be found. Telling a mother that they have lost a child has to be one of the hardest things that I have ever done. The good days out weigh the bad. I couldn't ever see myself doing anything else until one day when something literally inside of me changed my perspective.
When I was pregnant with Livi I was sick every day. I had somehow managed to learn how to drive and hold a puke bag at the same time. I LOST 25 lbs! Great weight loss plan? Not really. People would ask me, "You aren't coming back to work after the baby are you?" Well sure I am coming back to work! I had worked hard to become a nurse and I loved my job, why wouldn't I? I thought that I had it all planned out, because full time was only working 3 12 hour shifts a week, I would work mostly on weekends and my cousin and grandma would watch the baby the other times. It was the perfect plan. Early on a brisk November morning, all of that changed.
After 30+ hours of labor it was time for a c section. At this point, I didn't care how the baby came out, I was just exhausted and ready. When they held her up and announced those words "It's a girl", my entire life changed at that moment. She was tiny, healthy, and beautiful. She was mine. Before I ever left the hospital I had already started to think about what I was going to do when I went back to work. The thought of leaving this precious little being made me almost hyperventilate. After talking to Bobby I called my boss and worked out a part time position, working only 8 shifts a month. This all happened before we ever left the hospital!
After 6 weeks of maternity leave the day had come. I had been dreading this day. I carefully labeled all of the breast milk bottles in the fridge, had three changes of clothes laid out on the changing table. All of the diapers were organized and ready to go. A hand written note about what to do, when to do it, and what would happen if you didn't! I packed up all of my pumping supplies and kissed her little cheeks about 50 times and then walked out of the door. The tears started to come before I even got in the car. I was going to be gone at night, hopefully she would sleep the whole time I thought. After crying hysterically the entire way to work, I somehow got out of the car, clocked in, and pulled myself together to work. I loved this job, I missed work, I can do this! Then after about three hours the dreaded phone call came. My husband frantically wanting to know how to get her to stop crying. I could her her in the background screaming and my heart was breaking. By now I was engorged, I had not pumped since I left for work, and that is all it took. My milk let down and I started to cry too! Good thing that I work with some of the most wonderful people in the world. They were amazing, they let me cry, let me go pump, and tried to help me make it through the night!
That was the hardest night that I have ever had at work, but I made it.
After a few weeks we actually came up with a schedule and a solution. On nights that Bobby was on call the baby would stay with my parents, and on nights that he wasn't, a friend of mine would go and be an extra helping hand. It worked perfectly! I only had a few tears when I would leave for work. Before long I was actually looking forward to going to work. It was my time. Time where I could use the skills that I had worked so hard to learn, time to have adult conversations, time to have a little of the old Rach back. It was the perfect balance.
When I got pregnant with Frankie all of that changed again. I knew that with another baby it would be harder to keep to the same schedule that we had. Olivia was also getting to the point where she was crawling for the first time, trying to speak, clapping her little hands. All things that I didn't want to miss, things that I wanted to be there for. After another long discussion with Bobby we decided that I would cut my hours even more. I would only be required to work 3 shifts a month. In doing this I would have to fore fit any benefits that I had, but it was okay, we had found a solution. It turned out to be the best thing for our family.
I realize that not everyone has the option of staying at home. Some people do have the option and still choose to work full time. Every person is different. Every person is fulfilled in their own special way. In no way does it make any of us better or worse with the path that we decide. I am fortunate that I do have the option and the choice. I am thankful for the hard work that my husband does. I AM BLESSED!
There are days when going to work seems like a vacation and I can't wait to get there! At the end of my shift I am ready to see those cute faces and get big sloppy kisses! As parents we do our best, it is a learning process that I have come to find out never ends. Whatever you do, whether you are a stay at home mom or dad, career parent, or part timer, as long as our family's needs are meet then we are doing our job. Keep up the good work. I'm just glad that I get to have my piece of cake and eat it too!!!
When I was pregnant with Livi I was sick every day. I had somehow managed to learn how to drive and hold a puke bag at the same time. I LOST 25 lbs! Great weight loss plan? Not really. People would ask me, "You aren't coming back to work after the baby are you?" Well sure I am coming back to work! I had worked hard to become a nurse and I loved my job, why wouldn't I? I thought that I had it all planned out, because full time was only working 3 12 hour shifts a week, I would work mostly on weekends and my cousin and grandma would watch the baby the other times. It was the perfect plan. Early on a brisk November morning, all of that changed.
After 30+ hours of labor it was time for a c section. At this point, I didn't care how the baby came out, I was just exhausted and ready. When they held her up and announced those words "It's a girl", my entire life changed at that moment. She was tiny, healthy, and beautiful. She was mine. Before I ever left the hospital I had already started to think about what I was going to do when I went back to work. The thought of leaving this precious little being made me almost hyperventilate. After talking to Bobby I called my boss and worked out a part time position, working only 8 shifts a month. This all happened before we ever left the hospital!
After 6 weeks of maternity leave the day had come. I had been dreading this day. I carefully labeled all of the breast milk bottles in the fridge, had three changes of clothes laid out on the changing table. All of the diapers were organized and ready to go. A hand written note about what to do, when to do it, and what would happen if you didn't! I packed up all of my pumping supplies and kissed her little cheeks about 50 times and then walked out of the door. The tears started to come before I even got in the car. I was going to be gone at night, hopefully she would sleep the whole time I thought. After crying hysterically the entire way to work, I somehow got out of the car, clocked in, and pulled myself together to work. I loved this job, I missed work, I can do this! Then after about three hours the dreaded phone call came. My husband frantically wanting to know how to get her to stop crying. I could her her in the background screaming and my heart was breaking. By now I was engorged, I had not pumped since I left for work, and that is all it took. My milk let down and I started to cry too! Good thing that I work with some of the most wonderful people in the world. They were amazing, they let me cry, let me go pump, and tried to help me make it through the night!
That was the hardest night that I have ever had at work, but I made it.
After a few weeks we actually came up with a schedule and a solution. On nights that Bobby was on call the baby would stay with my parents, and on nights that he wasn't, a friend of mine would go and be an extra helping hand. It worked perfectly! I only had a few tears when I would leave for work. Before long I was actually looking forward to going to work. It was my time. Time where I could use the skills that I had worked so hard to learn, time to have adult conversations, time to have a little of the old Rach back. It was the perfect balance.
When I got pregnant with Frankie all of that changed again. I knew that with another baby it would be harder to keep to the same schedule that we had. Olivia was also getting to the point where she was crawling for the first time, trying to speak, clapping her little hands. All things that I didn't want to miss, things that I wanted to be there for. After another long discussion with Bobby we decided that I would cut my hours even more. I would only be required to work 3 shifts a month. In doing this I would have to fore fit any benefits that I had, but it was okay, we had found a solution. It turned out to be the best thing for our family.
I realize that not everyone has the option of staying at home. Some people do have the option and still choose to work full time. Every person is different. Every person is fulfilled in their own special way. In no way does it make any of us better or worse with the path that we decide. I am fortunate that I do have the option and the choice. I am thankful for the hard work that my husband does. I AM BLESSED!
There are days when going to work seems like a vacation and I can't wait to get there! At the end of my shift I am ready to see those cute faces and get big sloppy kisses! As parents we do our best, it is a learning process that I have come to find out never ends. Whatever you do, whether you are a stay at home mom or dad, career parent, or part timer, as long as our family's needs are meet then we are doing our job. Keep up the good work. I'm just glad that I get to have my piece of cake and eat it too!!!
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